I hope everyone had a meaningful Yom Kippur! For us it was great – my older four kids spent all day at shul (except when dh sent dd13 home in the late afternoon to check on me, and then sent ds10 home around 6 pm for the same reason). Dd8 and ds7 were amazing – they kept everything running beautifully and I basically sat in the recliner and nursed the baby all day!
(Note – my home computer is down so I might not be able to post as regularly until it’s fixed – hopefully it will be quickly and easily taken care of. I’ll also have to delay announcing and setting up the new blog, but it won’t be long!)
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking this last week about personal growth. My breathing difficulties have been a wonderful health opportunity, and I’m looking at changing how I’m spending my time in several ways.
I’m coming to think that most physical problems begin with an energetic/emotional block. I read a book by Louise Hay called You Can Heal Your Life, and she correlates various physical problems with the emotional blocks. Interestingly, what she wrote was what my chiro said about the breathing issues.
What I’d like to work on regarding this ties in with a lot of what I’ve been thinking about – where my energies are best spent and where they’re frittered away. I recognize that in the name of being responsible, I’ve spent too much time reading the (negative) news online, and that’s making me less positive, less trusting, and more fearful. That’s not the kind of person I want to be but if I keep spending my time reading negative things, it’s going to continue to influence me. So first of all, I’m not going to be frequenting a couple of my daily sites that I get news from.
Secondly, I don’t leave enough space in my life for quiet time for myself, where I can meditate, think deeply, or just breathe. I tend to feel like I have to DO something. Yes, I rest, but it’s not a purposeful connect with myself kind of resting. So the next thing is to consciously take time to spiritually and emotionally ground myself. During that time, I plan to do affirmations, writing, and reading, in addition to whatever else I do. I’d like to do this is the early morning but will do it before bed if that’s when I find the time – I’m not making rules about this.
Lastly, I’m going to try to emotionally release the need to be in control. That’s a much more subtle thing and it can even look positive on the outside, but it’s not good for me. I can’t control the world, other people, or my family members. I can just work on myself, and that’s where I want to stay focused.
What are your thoughts/plans on how to make this year even better than the past?