My husband was feeling under the weather this week and took a day off of work to stay home and rest.
At some point in the morning, he was doing a puzzle with a couple of the boys and looked up at me and said, “It’s such a beautiful environment here. Thank you for all that you do – I know it doesn’t happen by itself.”
Often I look around at my home and family, and feel a deep sense of contentment: of being right where I’m meant to be, doing what I’m meant to to do, living my life every day with the people I love. I don’t ever take it for granted. It’s been a choice that I didn’t make one time, but many, many times.
It’s been a choice when feeling conflicted and pulled about finances, homeschooling, living in a different country. But our decision to build our family in a given way has been a consistent. In our home there are a lot of people, a lot of personalities, a lot of things that are happening and moving parts in so many directions!
And now we come to a place of once again consciously making the choice to create this environment for our children.
We recently filed a new application that included Yirmi as he has reached the age for official homeschooling. On Sunday morning we have an appointment – together with ds5, ds8, ds10 and ds11 -with a committee at the Department of Education regarding our homeschooling application. I don’t find it appropriate for adults to question children about the educational decisions their parents have made for them, but no one has asked my opinion on how to run things in our government.
I had a lot of anxiety about this process for a very long time – from the time Yirmi was an infant, actually. I felt that submitting this application for a child with special needs would be voluntarily walking into the lions den. But as I’ve said before, making decisions from a place of fear isn’t a good place to be at. If I’m feeling fearful I need to look at my thinking – and then I ask myself if I’m giving away my power to the officials at the Dept. of Education.
I can’t control what the people I will meet will say or do or think of me, but I do have a choice about the thoughts I allow into my mind!
- I choose to picture a pleasant and positive meeting with all involved.
- I choose to picture permission to homeschool all of our children, and particularly Yirmi, being granted quickly and easily.
I’m choosing to keep my thoughts focused on a positive outcome, rather than fearing our quality of life being threatened if permission is denied. I trust that the same One Who gave me these children to raise will help us through this process. That thought has helped me replace my anxiety with feeling empowerment instead. I was pleasantly surprised when I got the call about the meeting that I felt very calm – even after hearing the name of the person we’ll be meeting with (someone with a reputation for being very difficult to deal with).
I won’t write more than to say that this is a significant meeting, particularly since I’m not aware of any other child with Trisomy 21 being homeschooled in the entire country. So we’ll be blazing a new trail.
We’re looking forward to receiving our legal approval and to sharing our good news with you! We welcome all positive thoughts and prayers on our behalf as well!