Avivah Werner

Author: Avivah

  • Chocolate Peanut Butter Oatmeal Bars

    I like trying new recipes out, and this week I made these chocolate peanut butter oatmeal bars for the first time and they were a hit! Honestly, you don’t have to work too hard to make something taste amazing when you put chocolate and peanut butter together. 🙂

    (I didn’t remember when I first saw this recipe and am glad that it didn’t take too much time searching online to find the website so that I can give the creator of this yumminess credit! She has lots of other great recipes, too.) I hardly adapted it at all.

    It’s also a fun recipe to put together with kids – since it’s a no-bake recipe, it’s ready for tasting very soon after you make it!

    Chocolate Peanut Butter Oatmeal Bars

    • 1/2 cup honey
    • 1/4 cup peanut butter
    • 1 tbsp coconut oil
    • 1 tsp vanilla
    • 2 3/4 cup quick oats
    • 1/2 tsp salt
    • 4 to 5 oz chocolate chips or baking chocolate
    • 1/2 cup peanut butter

    Mix the honey, 1/4 c. peanut butter, coconut oil and vanilla. Stir in the oats and salt. Transfer 2/3 of the mixture to a greased 8×8 pan (put aside 1/3 for the topping) and press down very well.

    In a separate bowl, carefully melt the chocolate and 1/2 cup peanut butter and stir until smooth. Pour this on top of the crust in the pan. Crumble the remaining oat mixture on top of the chocolate layer, then press down. Refrigerate or freeze until firm enough to cut squares.

    So easy, so good!

    Avivah

  • Q & A – Don’t Turn Mealtimes into a Battleground

    Q & A – Don’t Turn Mealtimes into a Battleground

    I received a number of questions and comments to my last post about not making meal time a battleground, so I’ll respond to those here.

    “In regards to what you just wrote about healthy mealtime – But what do you say  if they want to put croutons in every soup you make – you let or you don’t (  that’s just one example)?Or snacks in the morning, for a long time I was sending them off with my own health cookies and popcorn…but they want what all their friends have – pretzels  and who knows what…I dont  want to fight but I do care…so how would your no fighting approach fit in..”

    If you let them put croutons in the soup depends on if this is something you’re comfortable or not. If you’re comfortable with it, go ahead and let them have it. If you’re not, then that is your boundary that you’ll share with your child of what to expect at meal time in your home. Your expectations don’t have to be a big discussion – put it on the table and when asked about it, let your child know that croutons are for special days and tonight there won’t be croutons. Same approach with whatever else may come up.

    Don’t be afraid to have boundaries! So often parents cringe when I explain my position on this; they tell me it sounds harsh. I don’t see it as mean or unkind to serve your child appetizing food and let them to eat the amount they’re comfortable with, thereby allowing dinner to be a time of connection rather than conflict. Why do parents feel it’s ‘nicer’ to be ambivalent about their position is, which results in ongoing conflicts about what to eat, how much to eat, how fast to eat, why to eat it….??

    Today my child had a friend over who asked if I had honey. When I told him we did, he asked me for a spoonful. I asked him if he wanted it with tea or something like that. He said no, he just likes to eat it off the spoon. I told him that would make it a treat, and in our house we save treats for Shabbos. He asked again for it, and I smiled and repeated that on Shabbos we have treats. He asked why and I told him – again, with a smile – that’s how we do it. It’s not productive to be drawn into a discussion in which I feel the need to explain or rationalize to his satisfaction why I do what I do (kids love these situations, because as long as they can keep arguing, they have hope we’ll give in).

    About snacks in a peer setting – again, you get to decide what your boundaries will be! There’s no right and wrong, just what is right for you. There’s always a range of choices when it comes to a child fitting in – does he get the basic backpack or the designer backpack/ shoes/ snacks, or something in between? Someone is going to be holding the bar down and someone is going to be raising the bar of expectations. Where do you want to be?

    Personally, I like to be on the lower side but not on the bottom. So I’d send my kids with snacks that were similar to their peers but within my comfort zone regarding cost, nutrition or whatever else was concerning me. It’s reasonable to support your child so he is within normal range for his peer group.

    If this was something that really mattered to my kids, I’d have a discussion with them and listen to their concerns, and share my concerns with them. With all of that in mind, I’d try together with them to come up with some options we could all feed good about.

    “Would you mind sharing if you serve dessert on a regular basis? Most nights? Not often? I watch my daughter and her constant battles with food with her children and it almost always revolves around eating to be rewarded with dessert. I served regular meals, 3 times a day to my 7 and they ate what I served and most nights received a cookie of some kind after dinner. I didn’t pay close attention to what they ate and just assumed it all would work out, as all of the food I served was healthy and homemade. I cringe at the mealtime battleground and we eat together often!”

    I don’t give my kids dessert after dinner other than on Shabbos (and then I have a nice selection), but there’s no reason not to give dessert if it’s something you want to do! My grandparents and aunt used to serve dessert after dinner and it never affected how much I ate of the main meal. It was understood that it was a nice extra.

    I don’t think dessert is the pivotal issue. The more relevant factor is if it’s an inherent part of the meal or a reward the kids have finagled for eating the food that they were served as part of the main meal. My children aren’t doing me a favor by eating their dinner, and incentives create that attitude. Incentives basically show kids that there’s something we care much more about than they do, giving them something to resist and negotiate on.

    Since I assume they’ll eat if they’re hungry, there’s not something for the kids to resist!  They have responsibility for if they eat, and they bear the consequences of not eating – this is an issue between the child and himself, not me and him.

    Giving incentives to children concerns me because it decreases their own internal motivation to do what it is they’re being incentivized to do; it’s not effective in the long term and even in the short term is just managing the symptoms of the issue rather than getting to the root of it.

    “I agree with this overall, however I think peer pressure, peer culture, and school make a huge impression. Many kids are surrounded by sugar from 8 AM until late afternoon. The schools are using candy and junk food for prizes and behavior modification and the peers compete who can bring in the junkiest junk food. My youngest finished elementary school last year, but this was a huge problem the entire 25+ years I had kids in elementary schools. Once in high school the girls switched to competing diets, which can bring a whole other variety of issues.I think the most important thing is sitting together and having real meals together as a family. I would guess many (most?) families don’t even do that most days. (Myself included-it’s a real struggle!)”

    Yes, I agree with you that the school culture and the pressures it creates are real. When my kids go to camp and when they’ve been in school, I’ve encountered this same issue.

    I look at this as a question of looking at what is in your circle of influence and what is in your circle of concern. It concerns you what happens in school, but you can’t control it. You can influence and impact what happens in your own home, so that’s where you put your effort.  The more you invest energy into where you can make an impact, the greater your ability to affect things that were previously outside of your influence will be.

    So practically, that means serving meals that align with what you believe to be appropriate in your home. Make each meal pack a nutritional punch and are as appealing as possible, knowing that your kids are tanked up on sugar and may not be so interested in the food you serve.  There are meals that my kids will eat and not complain about, and then there are the meals that they really, really appreciate.

    So I would make more of the meals they really appreciate in the situation you described, knowing that they wouldn’t be hungry enough to eat food that they were kind of blah about.  These foods would still be those that I decided were appropriate nutritionally.

    And yes, it’s hard to make family mealtime a regular sit down event. Especially as kids get older and everyone is going in a different direction at different times, it can feel like herding cats! I decided to make this a priority as it came up for me in my personal mission statement work as a strong value. If someone isn’t home, they obviously can’t be there, but whoever is home participates and it’s a nice grounding way to connect everyone at the end of the day.

     “this would work for parents who have kids who are not picky. my boys won’t eat anything other than string cheese and canned peaches or pineapple. and that is a struggle. I’ve had to insert incentives to get them to eat. if I had them only choose from my meal that i made for the rest of the family they would not eat. you may say that they would eventually eat if they were hungry enough, but they are stubborn enough to perhaps forego dinner and wait for their cereal in the morning!”

    Actually, this is the approach that works best to help kids move beyond their picky tendencies! This is WHY my kids aren’t picky eaters.

    To clarify a couple of things: firstly, I only offer my children choices of foods that I would be happy for them to eat. So if they chose to wait for breakfast, that would be fine for me because the breakfast choice would be one I would know would meet their nutritional needs. I’m saying that I really don’t have an attachment to them having to eat dinner if they don’t want to.

    Until a child feels the space inside himself of his own wanting something, they’re not going to be internally motivated (this is true in all areas). If we keep them from feeling that space because we’re so busy filling it for them, we deny them the opportunity to expand themselves. A parent has to be really careful about using incentives because it can create a dynamic that will backfire on the parent.

    Interestingly, parents always tell me their kids will only eat dairy and carbs (fruits are also carbs); I don’t think anyone has ever complained to me that their kids prefer protein and don’t want to eat noodles! Many people have a higher sensitivity to these foods since they quickly convert to sugar in the body, thereby inducing very strong cravings.

    Some kids have an actual allergy to certain foods and it’s the allergy that creates the craving for those foods.  If your child are extremely set in their eating habits, I would consider if there is a deeper physiological issue that needs to be addressed (eg candida overgrowth and other gut related issues can create very strong cravings).

    “You’ve obviously never dealt with a chronically picky eater. I call DD “The Starch Beast.” She will live on carbs if I let her.”

    Yes, I believe you. Note my comment above regarding cravings for starches.

    “I’ve learned to serve the protein and veggies first, and only after those are gone will I serve her a starch. Otherwise, she’ll fill up on rice or potatoes, and not want to have anything else. She’s 14 now, and will still live on potato chips and popcorn if she could have her own way. Even with pizza, she only wants to eat the crust!”

    What I hear you saying is that you’ve clarified the boundaries that work in your home and in your situation! Wonderful! As I said above, the parent has to set boundaries that she is comfortable with based on her specific concerns, and serve foods that honor those boundaries.

    “what about a child who will forgo dinner and then wake up in the night crying from hunger and demand milk and a snack?”

    I don’t suggest starving any child!

    I would let the child know that now is dinner time, and until the morning, there will only be xyz foods/drinks (whatever is okay with you). You as the parent draw the boundaries around this. I would encourage him to have something now, explaining that if he wake up in the middle of the night he may be hungry and at that point since dinner is over, I’m only going to be able to offer him xyz (again, whatever you decide in advance but it should be minimal and not compelling).

    If he wakes up, empathize and let him know you know how hard it is to be hungry, and he’s welcome to have whatever it is you previously agreed to with him. (And that wouldn’t be milk and a snack, which would keep the cycle going! :))

    Recognize that you’re not forcing your child to go without food. It’s your child who is making the choice not to eat.  (By the way, notice once again that the child is asking for dairy and a carb – the more cravings for simple carbs are given in to, the more the child will crave them.)

    By the way, the use of the word ‘demand’ implies that it’s the child who has the power to determine what he is served, and that the parent have no choice but to passively respond. I very, very strongly believe in a parent proactively taking action according to the guidelines that she has determined will best meet the needs of her child.

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    Food brings up so many strong feelings for parents! Whenever this topic comes up in my parenting workshops, there are always a flood of specific questions. I hope that I’ve addressed some of the underlying issues here!

    Avivah

  • Stop making meal time a battle ground!

    Stop making meal time a battle ground!

    Some people think I’m really into nutrition, but that’s not true.  Yes, I feed my family a diet that is considered healthy. But I’m not into it.  Good nutrition is important in a number of ways, but it’s not something that is a central topic of discussion with my family much at all.

    Recently someone who is very concerned about healthy eating asked me some questions about how I feed my kids, specifically wanting to know about snacks.  Honestly, I don’t do much in the way of snacks.

    Here are my basic guidelines for meals: Three meals a day, they can eat as much or as little as they want of whatever I serve.  If they get hungry in between, they can have a vegetable or fruit, by itself or with something like chummus or peanut butter (eg carrot sticks with chummus, apple slices with peanut butter). Often one of the kids will pop up a pot of popcorn.

    For Shabbos breakfast I usually buy cornflakes (plain, not frosted) or make granola; on a regular day breakfast is usually eggs, oatmeal or polenta.

    She asked about other specifics:  I use hardly any processed foods (the main exceptions are mayonnaise and hummus – yes, I know I can make them from scratch and often I have but right now I usually don’t).  I don’t make lots of ‘junk’ foods (except on Shabbos and usually then I’ll use white or brown sugar), and I don’t try to make healthy copycat version of popular snack foods. Meals consist mostly of proteins, grains, legumes and vegetables.

    “But how do they comply with that?”  (Or more commonly phrased, “How do you get them to eat that?”) Food and compliance are two words that I don’t want associated with one another in my home. Compliance implies that I’m trying to force healthy foods on them against their will. I don’t see it as my job to force or manipulate my children to eat anything. When they’re hungry, they’ll eat.

    If you want to encourage your children to eat more nutritiously, don’t talk so much about it! Don’t make such a big deal! Sure, you can talk a bit about the choices you make and why, but honestly, serving food that tastes good and enjoying your meal times together is much more important than your explanations about how healthy it is.

    Know also that when you talk too much about something and how wonderful it is, it can actually create resistance in your children toward the very thing you’re trying to encourage! Ironic but true.

    I’m not invested emotionally in what my children eat. I serve what I serve and I trust that they’ll listen to their bodies and eat the quantity that is appropriate to them. I choose what to serve, they choose if they want to eat it or not. That’s a fair division of meal time responsibility, I think!

    This relaxed approach has served us well over the years. Our children aren’t picky eaters, are for the most part appreciative of what they get, and most importantly, the dinner table isn’t a battleground.

    Avivah

  • Letting go of things that hold us back from who we’re meant to be..and what we’re changing in our home

    It’s so easy to get busy, busy, busy with all of the physical preparations for Pesach – the cooking and cleaning and cooking and cleaning and yet more cooking and cleaning…that we often don’t have time and energy left to consider the deeper messages of this holiday. The physical act of getting rid of the chametz (leavened foods) in our homes is intended to be a reflection of releasing the spiritual and emotional ‘chametz’ – those unwanted activities or attitudes in our lives that are holding us back from developing ourselves fully.

    The Pesach seder is an incredibly powerful spiritual time when we create the space to acknowledge what holds us back, who we have the potential to be, and being willing to release whatever it is that we’re holding onto that is keeping us from being that person.   I’ve told you already that part of my preparations for the seder are taking a long nap erev Pesach; another thing is to take the time to contemplate before the seder

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    I recently finished reading Hatchet together with our boys, the fictional story of a teen who survives a plane crash and is left to alone in the Canadian wilderness. Slowly and with great effort Brian learns to survive- to make a shelter, create a fire and find food.

    Almost two months after the crash, he is able to retrieve the survival pack from the plane. In it he finds lots of items that will make his survival much easier – including a gun and matches. Previously he had to learn to make a fire using natural materials and had to understand animal habits in order to hunt them.  After taking out each of these two items, he immediately felt different, removed from the world he had worked so hard to understand in order to survive – and he wasn’t sure he liked how that difference made him feel.

    I thought of Brian when I read this article,  in which the advent of the smartphone is compared to the development of the phonetic alphabet or the newspaper in its momentousness. “I don’t think people realize how radically different it is to be a human being with a phone in your pocket,” Dugoni said.

    Kind of like how Brian felt different with the tools of civilization in his hand, tools that served to separate him from the level of consciousness he had developed without them.

    There is an increasing awareness of the ways that the internet and more specifically, smartphones are changing our lives as a society. I’m not referencing this from a religious perspective, but a place of concern about what these changes mean for the emotional and social development of individuals, families and our entire culture.  (Here’s a worthwhile read sharing a number of thought-provoking points: Have Smartphones Destroyed a Generation?)

    I don’t have a smartphone – but my internet usage has often been something I’ve felt uncomfortable with.  It’s convenient and there are definitely pluses – a huge one for me has been the ability to connect with many people irrespective of distance. However, ironically, though I joined Facebook since it was suggested as a way to reach more people – and yet as a direct result of being on social media, my time spent writing  dropped significantly! There are a few reasons for that – one is that it’s much easier to be a passive consumer of someone else’s sound bites than to take the time and effort to compose my own thoughts.

    But despite my awareness that my online use isn’t always beneficial to me, it’s so compelling that often-  very often – I continue browsing longer than serves a productive purpose. It’s not surprising and I’m not unusual in that regard – it’s a medium that was developed to be addictive, to create the desire for just a little more and a little more, to just keep scrolling down just one more time….

    I’m not talking about viewing things that are inappropriate or offensive – even with wholesome internet use like mine, one’s time can easily slip away without being fully aware of it. And I have to admit that my online activity displaces time that could be spent on other things, things that would be of more benefit to me and those around me.

    So I’ve had to ask myself some hard questions, about who I want to be, what I want my family to look like, and is my online time aligned with that? My husband and I have been discussing this in recent weeks, and here are some changes we’re in the process of implementing.

    First of all, my husband (who was given a smartphone by his employer over a year ago) decided to buy a simple cell phone and stopped using his smartphone. (It’s relevant to note that he was judicious in his use of his phone, consistently turning it off for hours every day. ) It took only one day for him to feel to express how freeing it has been to not have the smartphone in his pocket – it has a real presence.

    Our family screen time policy is conservative by most accounts – our kids don’t independently use the internet, and when they do they do use the internet, the main thing that they do is listen to classical or frum music or audiobooks (borrowed from the US library we are still members of).  Sometimes I will show them short clips that I think will be of interest to them – sometimes something cute or touching, sometimes something educational. Is that so bad? No, it’s not.

    But when I asked myself, ‘do I want my children to associate computer use with being the central source of entertainment?’, I felt uncomfortable.

    I want my children to have time and space to connect with themselves, with others, to kick around a ball, get lots of fresh air and outdoor time. I don’t want them inside holed up around a screen, even if they’re listening to something of educational value that is enriching in some ways.

    While I’d love to eliminate the internet from my home and have seriously considered it a number of times (I would have it in my office, which is outside my home), since I use an online program that is an important language support for ds5, I can’t get rid of it entirely. However, we’ve made a move toward dramatically reducing screen time for our kids. Their computer time increased in recent months when I was busy planning two weddings back to back, and they weren’t excited about our decision to cut their online time.

    However, we didn’t just say no and take it away without any replacement of some sort. Ds12 and ds10 both got mp3s, which have been loaded with lots of Torah stories and music. It’s been especially nice to listen to these stories together – I love how they are filling their minds with valuable concepts and information at the same time they’re having fun!

    And now for me. Sigh. I’m the most challenged in this regard. I try to keep the computer turned off during the day, because once it’s on, it’s easy for me to browse online. Then when I go online – usually once every day or two, I try to have an idea of what I want to accomplish and to have a time limit. Like I said, I’m trying! I can’t say that I just stopped cold turkey and it was easy. It’s not easy at all, but recognizing this is a habit that isn’t serving me in living my life as fully as I’d like makes it easier to move toward something better.

    So far, I’m getting more sleep (well, usually – I have to admit that I’m writing this at 3 am after being up late cooking for the seder!), I’ve read more books, my kitchen is cleaner and when my kids speak to me, I am much less likely to ask them to repeat themselves after not hearing them fully the first time because my mind was somewhere else. 🙂

    It’s a process. It’s not about perfection. I’m doing what I can to move in the direction I’d like to go, and there will be missteps and sometimes steps backward, but hopefully we can continue moving forward overall!

    So that’s a bit about some of my spiritual chametz, something that has been constricting and limiting, and now we’re trying to root it out and release it!

    Avivah

  • Getting into the Pesach spirit

    A neighbor knocked at my door a few days ago to offer us a food that isn’t kosher for Pesach, explaining that they had turned over their kitchen for Pesach (over a full week before the holiday begins). Hearing this, my younger kids were alarmed – “What?! Already?” And I knew they were wondering, ‘how can they be finished when we’ve hardly gotten started?’

    Every year we have this issue of someone in our family wondering why we’re not getting stressed out. After all, everywhere you turn are people rushing to and fro, with a sense of purposeful energy gushing as they turn their homes upside down and then right side out again!

    I don’t do that. I used to think something was wrong with me, and wondered what everyone else was doing that I wasn’t doing. Finally I realized that I wasn’t neglecting any important preparations; while there are plenty of people who do much more spring cleaning than I do, I actually do a good bit of that as well. It’s just that I don’t get too worked up about it.

    I try to be relaxed when preparing for Pesach, as I don’t want the preparations to overshadow the spirit of the holiday for me or for my family members.

    After the two weddings back to back this year, I’ve been really tired. And as a result I thought I wasn’t very effective in getting the kids at home to get involved in Pesach preparations. It takes head space to assign tasks, and I just didn’t want to think about it. Finally I sat down to make a list of what needed to be done so that the boys can choose jobs they want to do, and I realized there really isn’t that much left to do! (The boys have even found time for some nice extras, like painting the living room/dining room area, in addition to doing their bedrooms and helping with the various tasks I’ve asked them about.)

    So why am I feeling like I haven’t done anything for Pesach yet?? I realized that for me, it doesn’t feel like I’m doing anything for Pesach until I turn over the kitchen.

    Pesach begins Friday night, so we’ll do the kitchen on Weds. That will give me time to shop and get all the laundry done without pressure, and on Thursday and Friday I can do the cooking. Plenty of time to get ready, and most importantly, to take a nap on Friday so that everyone (including me!) is awake and able to enjoy the seder.

    The moms in my current parenting workshop asked me for my tips for the seder night, and my most important one is: be rested. You can make a simpler menu, you can do less spring cleaning, but the most important part of Pesach is the seder and everyone should be able to enjoy it!

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    This year I wanted to reach out to single women who might appreciate an invitation for seder night and posted on our community Facebook group to let them know they could be in touch with me. So far I got rainchecks for next year though none for this year, but as I told a friend, even if the only thing posting my offer accomplished was that someone might feel cared about even if she didn’t join us, that’s also worthwhile.

    She responded that she felt my offer did more than that – she said that it made her consider who might she know that could be in need of a place and reach out to them, and she thinks others had the same response. If that’s true, I’m happy to be part of the cycle of making our community a more connected place!

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    Last night someone knocked on our door in need of financial assistance. After giving her some money, I invited her in for a drink and something to eat. I asked her if she had children, and when she responded that she did, I asked if I could send some cake for them. (I thought it might be burdensome for her to have to carry it the rest of the evening until she got home.)

    Lest you think I always happen to have fresh cakes available to give away on the spur of the moment, the answer is not at all! We baked a cake to send to someone I thought would appreciate it, but then my kids were sick and no one was able to deliver it….

    I thought it was a shame for it to go to waste, but Hashem clearly had a different plan than mine for who would benefit- and sent that person right to my door!

    I packed up the cake and chatted with this woman a bit. I shared with her that we’ve also been through very difficult financial periods and I know how hard it can be.

    She was so appreciative- yes, for the money and cake – but it seemed that the bit of conversation and warm wishes and hug on her way out meant even more. It is so difficult to maintain a positive sense of yourself when you’re struggling financially and need to ask for help, and it means a lot to know that you’re still viewed as a valuable human being.

    I read recently that it’s been documented that doing mitzvos shifts your aura, and I felt that last night. I had such a warm feeling when she left. We think we’re doing those in need a favor by helping them, but I really felt that I had been the one who was helped by being able to give to someone else.

    And that was a very nice way to get into the holiday spirit.

    Avivah

  • 50 Moms – A Thousand Years video

    I’m a day late in posting for World Down Syndrome Day, but I loved this video so much that I just had to share it with you!

    This was made by fifty mothers of four year olds with Down syndrome in the UK who were on a Facebook Down syndrome group together. Each one signed the song together with their child while sitting in the front seat of their cars, and a couple of dads edited the clips and put it together.

    What’s the message?To me it shows the joy and love in having a child with Down syndrome, and I think the hashtag that accompanies it is powerful in its simplicity – #wouldn’tchangeathing.

    I know, Down syndrome is supposed to be a bad thing, right? But that just hasn’t been my experience at all. And I love seeing so many other moms expressing the same thing.

    What do you think?

    Avivah

  • Sheva brachos reflections, my boys the waiters and the menus

    Sheva brachos reflections, my boys the waiters and the menus

    It has been a wonderfully busy and full and happy season of wedding preparations, of hosting and shopping and planning and preparing – and this week the sheva brachos for our second daughter has ended.

    I was reflecting on how nice it is to have this time to see the new couple each evening, and how valuable it is to have this week to ease the transition for both the new couple and their families. It’s been so nice to have the opportunity to get to know the family members of each of our sons-in-law. And of course, it’s extremely nice to hear wonderful things being said about the new couple (and their families :)).

    From the first sheva brachos after the second wedding- my husband and I with our three couples and ds19
    From the first sheva brachos after the second wedding- my husband and I with our three couples and ds19 in the center

    One person told me after attending the first sheva brachos that we hosted that he never was at a sheva brachos where he was repeatedly close to tears. I asked him why, and he told me that he was touched by how much love was expressed by our children for one another when each of them spoke. I was very touched by his appreciation – it helps me to not take their connection with one another for granted.

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    People have been asking me in the last couple of days if now that the weddings are over I’m resting and taking it easy.

    Well, not exactly. I do still have a number of other people in our family who have needs to tend to! It’s actually quite a list right now of things that very much need my attention – I’ll spare you the list – and that’s before taking into account any Pesach preparations!

    In any case, it will take a while to process the changes but I think everyone is transitioning well to our new normal. I’m keeping my eye on ds5; we spent time every day for three months preparing him for this because he’s very close to his big sisters and I was concerned them moving out would be a significant trauma for him. He’s been very out of sorts since the second wedding and it’s hard to know how much is being overtired and out of his usual routine. I’m positive that missing his sisters is a big part of it.

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    This past Shabbos we hosted sheva brachos in our home for Friday night dinner and shalosh seudos; friends hosted the lunch meal. I’ll share the menu for those of you who may find that helpful!

    I did something very wise and hired my younger boys (11, 10 and 8) to be the waiters. About noon on Friday I told them I had limited people I would hire and was offering each of them the possibility of waitering. To have the option of being a waiter, they needed to be dressed for Shabbos and have their room clean by 3 pm, in addition to the other tasks I had asked them to do earlier in the day. Obviously they needed to do what they were asked before and during the meals promptly and with a good attitude.

    I made a master list so ds11 would know what to do when (I made him head waiter and later gave him a tip for taking more responsibility) and took a few minutes to go over the basic run down of what to expect. My goal was to sit and enjoy the meal, and though I definitely was needed to facilitate the courses, for the most part the boys did the bulk of the work – they did a great job with smiling faces the whole night long! Afterwards they told me it was fun being a waiter. 🙂 And they were all very happy with their payment, which came out to less than 100 shekels

    Here is the menu plan!

    Friday night:

    • rolls
    • dips – chumus, techina, spicy Moroccan carrot salad
    • olives, pickles

    First course:

    • baked carp with pesto topping
    • mayonnaise

    (I was very nervous about this since I never make fish for Friday nights, and was worried about keeping it warm until it was served without it drying out. I baked it only 10 – 15 minutes, leaving it half baked. Then I put it in the oven to warm up and left it there until it was time to serve it. I was worried it would be undercooked or dried out and was so relieved when I opened the pan that it was just right!)

    Soup course:

    • chicken soup

    Main course:

    • roasted sweet potatoes with cinnamon and ginger
    • sesame broccoli
    • green beans with honey-tahini glaze
    • roasted eggplant, zucchini and onion
    • rice
    • roast chicken
    • chicken breast in coconut tomato sauce
    • salad – lettuce/cherry tomatoes/peppers/cukes

    Dessert:

    • trifle cups – whipped cream and chocolate mousse topping brownies and white cake
    • baked sliced apples
    • peanut butter coconut flour cake
    • coconut flour bundt cake topped with coconut cream and blueberries

    Shalosh seudos/third meal:

    • rolls
    • dips – chummus, fresh tomato dip, Turkish salad, eggplant dip
    • baked carp
    • salads – pineapple coleslaw, sushi salad, Moroccan carrot salad, eggplant halves drizzled with techina, purple cabbage salad with almonds and red pepper, lettuce tomato salad, tomato salad
    • cakes – assortment of bakery cakes

    I probably am forgetting something since there was a lot of food!

    We hosted dinner in our living room, which was cozy, and then had shalosh seudos on our large porch, which had more space. My husband preferred to have people sitting closer together in the beginning to give more of a feeling of togetherness and getting to know one another. It worked out really nicely!

    We were called by the daughter of a long term friend of my husband, who is in seminary this year and asked about coming this week for Shabbos with a couple of friends. I really didn’t want to say no, but my husband I agreed that we all need a quiet Shabbos this week. It will definitely be much quieter than it’s been lately, with only the youngest six boys at home; we’ll have a simple menu and hopefully some time to rest!

    Avivah

     

  • Wedding of Michal and Amitai – pics

    Wedding of Michal and Amitai – pics

    I can hardly believe that our two oldest daughters are now married!

    Last night we celebrated the first sheva brachos for Michal and Amitai. Today we had the Purim seuda in our home, and tomorrow night will begin the Shabbos sheva brachos that we are hosting! Does that hint at how extremely busy I am??

    Honestly, I should be cooking for sheva brachos right now since very little has been prepared and there’s quite a lot to do, but I’ve decided to take a break of sorts and share some of the unofficial wedding pictures with you instead. Decadent of me, isn’t it? 🙂

    It was another beautiful wedding!

    T. helping Michal get ready
    It’s nice having an older sister to help get you get ready for your wedding!

    Our lovely bride!

    Our lovely bride!

    T. helping Michal get ready
    Sisters
    All the siblings!
    All the siblings!
    Michal and Rafael (14 months)
    Michal and Rafael (14 months)
    Married 12 days!
    Married 12 days!
    Amitai placing veil over Michal
    Amitai placing veil over Michal at bedecken
    Walking to chupa
    Walking to chupa

    (For those who read my post a while back about remaking my gown for one of the weddings, this was the gown. Not that you can really see it well in the pictures, but it turned out nicely.)

    Walking to chupa
    Walking to chupa –

    We had really wanted to have the ceremony outdoors, and fortunately the heavy rain and very cold temperatures of the day before abated.

    Leading bride around the groom seven times
    Mothers escorting bride around the groom seven times
    The couple together at the end of seventh circle
    The couple together at the end of seventh circle

    Right at this point is where I got a surprise – the rosh yeshiva who was going to be officiating had gotten sick and been replaced by a Taimani (Yemenite) rav.   I would have been able to appreciate the ceremony more fully if I had known to expect some differences but even so enjoyed it.  A number of people came over to me afterward and told me how beautiful it was, that it was the first time they had attended a Yemenite wedding ceremony. It was my first time, too!

    While waiting to take family pictures after the ceremony, Yirmi makes friends with the photographers
    While waiting to take family pictures after the ceremony, Yirmi spends time with the photographers – this is the second wedding of ours that they’ve photographed so they’ve gotten to know each other!

    At our last wedding, the musicians told us it was unusually high energy group. And it was – there was a lot of love being expressed by a lot of people.

    This wedding was just a night before Purim, and with 100 plus guys from Amitai’s yeshiva, many of whom were dressed in costume, it was super pumped. Though I’ve been told weddings of guys from this yeshiva are energetic, the musician (who is also from the yeshiva) told me this was on a different scale completely. It was very, very high energy. It didn’t pause for a second.

    Our male family members had to really work to get into the center of the circle to dance with Amitai and later when Michal came to the mens’ side, to dance for them both. It was actually kind of intimidating for my younger boys, who really wanted to dance for their sister and with their new brother-in-law but didn’t feel able to force their way in. I appreciated one man who noticed ds10 and pulled him in, giving him the chance to rollerblade for the couple.

    A human pyramid - ds19 is on the top in the green wig
    Ds19 on top of the human pyramid (in the green wig)

    m wedding - on tables

    Michal throwing candies to Amitai over the divider

    After this picture, Michal’s friends put her down and continued dancing with her.

    Dancing on women's side
    Dancing on women’s side

    Amitai’s friends, who were also holding him on a tabletop, threw him up in the air repeatedly, so high that several times he hit the ceiling (which led to another interesting and memorable situation later on when his key and phone flew out of his pocket and were temporarily lost).

    Dh and I at the end of the wedding with ds11 and ds 14mo
    Dh and I at the end of the wedding with ds11 and ds 14mo

    I’ll share official pictures when we have them, which will of course include pictures of the couple together! I realize it’s disappointing not to see those. Sorry, for now I can only share the pictures I was sent. 🙁

    So that they’re represented as a couple in this post :), I’ll share a picture of them 24 hours later at their first sheva brachos.

    Married for a day!
    Married for a day!

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    It’s hard to believe that we have three married couples now!

    It will take some time to process all the changes happening in our family – this third wedding took place exactly a year and a week from the time Rafael entered the family (the three weddings took place within 8.5 months), so there have been four new family members in the last year! It’s been very special and emotional to see our family expand to include these beautiful people.

    Avivah

  • Choosing wedding music for the chupa

    So many little details go into preparing for a wedding!

    Right now I can’t describe the different things that I’m doing all at one time. It’s overwhelming if I try to describe it or think of all the different details that I’m arranging, and then I start to feel stressed. Dealing with one piece at a time is how this entire period of preparing for two weddings so close together has been manageable and relaxed for me.

    So I’ll just share about one piece. 🙂

    For the chupa (wedding ceremony), three songs are chosen – one for the chasan to walk down to, one for the kallah to walk down to, and one for when the cup is broken at the end. Michal asked Amitai for his feedback on what song he thought would be a good choice for her to walk down to.

    He chose a song that I love, love, love. Bo’i Kallah, by Yaakov Shwekey.  I thought it was perfect.

    And then Michal told me that she is choosing a different song.  Something that better reflects her thoughts and feelings. I didn’t think I could love a song any more than the first one, but when I heard this one, I got choked up because it is so …. her.  The song is Tefilat Kallah – Prayer of the Bride, by Yaakov Shwekey, and has had special meaning for her even prior to getting engaged.

    I’ve been practicing listening to it and not crying – so far it hasn’t worked. 🙂 I get teary at the same point every single time. But since I didn’t cry at either of the last two wedding ceremonies (even though I had to take a few deep breaths and close my eyes to keep the tears back), I’m hopeful I’ll make it through this next chupa without flooding the ceremony as well.

    The only problem with this song is that the vocal range ranges from very low and very high. Not a problem for a singer with an unusual ability to hit very high notes. But Michal has asked her oldest two brothers to sing this for her as she walks down, and they’re concerned about the necessary vocal range. We’ll see what happens!

    Avivah

  • Wedding of Tehila and Meir – pics

    On Thursday evening we celebrated the wedding of Tehila and Meir! Appropriately for a wedding on Rosh Chodesh Adar, it was an especially joyful wedding!

    Tehila started the day of her wedding by praying at the Kotel. Since a bride and groom have a special spiritual power to give blessings on the day of their wedding, she then went to a Jerusalem hospital to bless sick children and their families. In October 2015, ds5 had a serious surgery and Tehila was there when a bride came to his room to give him a blessing. She was so impressed by this that at that time, she told me when it was her wedding day, she planned to do the same. And so she did.

    The director of the ward where she visited was so touched and impressed by her that she came to the wedding to let my husband and I know what a special daughter we have. She told me that parents were crying at the beautiful blessings she gave them.

    The photos I’m able to share are dependent on what was sent to me by friends and family who took pictures from the sidelines. I don’t yet have pictures taken by Meir’s family members, and most of the pictures I have are from before the wedding when the couple couldn’t yet see each other, so he’s underrepresented only for that reason.

    Here are some pictures for now!

    Tehila - reading prayer for the brideTehila – reading prayer for the bride

    t wedding - t bouquet

    Family pic
    Family pic
    Tehila with her brothers
    Tehila with her brothers – note Rafael grabbing kippa off of ds8’s head
    Fun pic with brothers
    Fun pic with brothers!
    Rafael - almost a year since this cutie joined the family!
    Rafael – just five days short of a year since this cutie joined the family!
    My oldest son and his wonderful wife
    My oldest son and his wonderful wife
    Before bedeken
    Before bedeken
    Getting a blessing from her father at bedeken
    Getting a blessing from her father at bedeken
    Meir speaking to Tehila at bedeken
    Meir speaking to Tehila at bedeken
    Giving a blessing to her sister
    Giving a blessing to her sister after bedeken

    The chupa was so beautiful- one of the most beautiful I’ve ever been to. Actually, it was the most beautiful I’ve been to. 🙂  I was able to be very present and really appreciate each moment; it was definitely easier since this isn’t my first child to get married and I knew what to expect.

    While I managed to keep the tears at bay, I was told by a friend that there were many people crying during the chupa from deep emotion and happiness.

    Circling the chasan seven times
    Circling the chasan seven times

    t wedding - chupa 2

    Kallah circling the chasan under the chupa

    Married!! Being introduced as Mr. and Mrs. Samberg for the first time
    Married!! About to enter the hall as they are being introduced as husband and wife for the first time
    Meir dancing for Tehila
    Meir dancing for Tehila

    It was a very special evening for a very special couple!

    This is what I’ve been writing and teaching about parenting for all these years – this is what it leads to. To amazing young adults that I feel proud and humbled and grateful to call my children, watching them go onto their independent lives with the necessary skills to be successful in relationships and in life.

    Avivah