The Special Mother

Below is the second piece that a friend sent me after I shared with her that we were awaiting results of genetic testing to see if our baby had Trisomy 21.  I had never read this before, and it brought tears to my eyes when I did.

The Special Mother 

by Erma Bombeck 


Most women become mothers by accident, some by choice,
a few by social pressure and a couple by habit.
This year nearly 100,000 women will become mothers of handicapped children.
Did you ever wonder how these mothers are chosen?
Somehow I visualize God hovering over Earth
Selecting his instruments for propagation with great care and deliberation.
As he observes, he instructs his angels to take notes in a giant ledger.
“Armstrong, Beth, son. Patron Saint, Matthew.”
“Forrest, Marjorie, daughter. Patron Saint, Celia.”
“Rutledge, Carrie, twins. Patron Saint…give her Gerard. He’s used to profanity.”
Finally he passes a name to an angel and smiles. “Give her a handicapped child.”
The angel is curious. “Why this one, God? She’s so happy.”
“Exactly,” smiles God. “Could I give a handicapped child a mother who knows no laughter?
That would be cruel.”
“But does she have the patience?” asks the angel.
“I don’t want her to have too much patience, or she’ll drown in a sea of self-pity and despair.
Once the shock and resentment wear off she’ll handle it.”
“I watched her today.
She has that sense of self and independence so rare and so necessary in a mother.
You see, the child I’m going to give her has a world of it’s own.
She has to make it live in her world, and that’s not going to be easy.”
“But Lord, I don’t think she even believes in you.”
God smiles. “No matter, I can fix that. This one is perfect. She has just enough selfishness.”
The angel gasps, “Selfishness? Is that a virtue?”
God nods. “If she can’t separate herself from the child occasionally, she will never survive.
Yes, here is a woman whom I will bless with a child less than perfect.
She doesn’t know it yet, but she is to be envied.
She will never take for granted a spoken word.
She will never consider a step ordinary.
When her child says momma for the first time, she will be witness to a miracle and know it.
I will permit her to see clearly the things I see–ignorance, cruelty,
prejudice–and allow her to rise above them.
She will never be alone.
I will be at her side every minute of every day of her life
Because she is doing my work as surely as she is here by my side.”
“And what about her Patron Saint?” asks the angel, his pen poised in the air. God smiles.
“A mirror will suffice.”

Avivah

4 thoughts on “The Special Mother

  1. I don’t know if you know Sheva from your years in Baltimore, but I think you would appreciate her website and ideas. She truly appreciates the gifts of her daughter Rozie, who has DS (and she takes gorgeous pictures). Her site is myshtub.blogspot.com

    1. Thank you for the suggestion, Michal! Sheva emailed me directly a few days ago, and a couple of other people also shared the link to her blog. It really is beautiful!

  2. As the mother of a daughter with a catastrophic genetic syndrome (Walker-Warburg Syndrome), this brought tears to my eyes. My daughter’s prognosis was 6 months to 2 years, and she lived to be 7 years old. I’ve read a lot of inspirational information regarding parents of disabled children, but I had never seen this before. My daughter passed 16 years ago. I miss her so much, and would have taken care of her forever. She brought such joy to my life.

    I know just how you feel about your precious son. He’s such a special gift!

    1. Jen, I’m so sorry about your daughter. What a huge and painful loss.

      She sounds like a beautiful person – as do you – and I’m sure together you made the most of those seven years.

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